My Baby Tooth

I have a baby tooth. Not in a jar on the shelf, in my mouth. When I was a teenager it seemed like a quirky cool thing that made me different. I also never had wisdom teeth, another cool thing.

Now it's not so cool and I'm over the quirky thing. It hurts. At least two years ago I decided it was time to have it replaced. Then I found out what that would mean. After another year of pain/discomfort I decided I had to do it. After talking to Dr. Poitras about the process again I decided to wait some more.

"Whimp!" you may say. Especially you who have had wisdom teeth removed, but "Nay!" say I.

First they remove the offending infant and let it heal for two months. TWO MONTHS I'll have a gap. Then they put in the implant post. Not the pretty final tooth - just the post. After another few months they top it with the pretty tooth.

Oh, and by the way, my insurance won't pay for it. They would pay for a bridge, but that damages the neighbor teeth.

So, finally I've put the money aside in a tax free medical account. It's use it or lose it, so I guess I'm committed this time.

I don't wanna!!!!!!!!

quiet

Yesterday morning was quite frenetic.

Showers start at 5:00 even on a regular day. Mine's at 5, Caitlin 5:30, sometime between 6 and 6:30 I help mom. Caitlin is out the door at 6:30.

Yesterday mom had an appointment at 8:00 in the valley. She was stressed because she couldn't keep straight that she would leave at 7:00 not she had to be there at 7:00. It was a long appointment with the drug study group. She's participating in a study of an alzheimers drug. I think she's getting the placebo, because she is steadily declining.

I packed a bag for mom and helped Gary get her in the car.

Alex got up before 7:00 for his shower and was out the door by 7:15.

QUIET
QUIET

How long has it been since I've been home alone. It was heaven. No one needed anything. Total relaxation...ok, that was it. Maybe 10 minutes and then I had to go to work.

That few moments though...wow

Siegfried and Roy

Last night I was viewing a total eclipse of the sun from many places around the globe. This statement alone should let you know I was asleep the whole time.

The final way I intended to see the eclipse was skydiving in Africa, or was it the Nevada desert. My diving partners were Siegfried and Roy. After jumping out of the plane, something I would never do if I was awake, I couldn't find the ripcord. I kept looking and looking, not really panicked. After a while it wasn't me who couldn't find the cord, it was Siegfried, or was it Roy? Anyway my chute worked fine and his finally opened. And that was it.

hermit

I have this fantasy. Now before I go any farther I want to make it clear, I love you and you shouldn't take this personally.

Usually this fantasy hits me in the kitchen.

My fantasy includes one plate, one cup, one knife, one spoon, one fork. Food in my fantasy is single serving, narrow in scope. Cereal, yogurt, bread. Nothing using the stove, pots, or pans. Nothing that splatters.

What is it like to clean the kitchen and come back later to a clean kitchen?

How about the bathroom. One product for all washing. One towel. ONE TOOTHBRUSH.

My fantasy does not include shoes anywhere other than on feet or in closets.

Dog hair does not exist. Neither do used tissues, half empty water bottles, unfolded laundry.

How do other people do it? I can't possibly keep up with the housework and I don't even do the cooking. If I did, we would eat the same thing everyday - and it would be plain.

writing

Hmm, that writing plan of mine hasn't been happening. I notice that a lot of what I want to write I worry will be read. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I don't want to expose anyone's confidentialities. (Is that even a word?) I know what I mean - you, that reader I worry about, know what I mean.

busy busy

Every day is full of planned and unplanned events. Some good, some bad, some mundane. I crave time to do whatever I want including nothing. Even fun things seem like a chore to fit in.

I hate feeling guilty that I'm not working in my classroom. After all, I'm not paid/contracted to be there until the 12th. There is no way I could do what is needed in that short period of time. I'll have to get in there soon.

They’re all ugly!

Gary and I are going to Santa Barbara and Solvang with Gayle for the weekend. I wanted a new summer dress for our wine tasting tour. Nothing fancy. Just something new to make me feel pretty and stuff.

I went to the mall today and all the dresses were UGLY! I noticed this trend when I took Caitlin dress shopping a few weeks ago. I think she got the only pretty dress produced this season.

I bought a skirt that was 70% off. It's great for the $11 it cost, but not what I had in mind. The dresses were so ugly that I didn't even try any on. Ordinarily I'll give a dress a chance if it seems even close. Today nothing warranted the effort.

I'm sure what I wear won't effect the fun we'll have, but damn! I wanted a new dress.